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BELGRADO EVE

Author: Lidija / Labels: ,


BELGRADO BEFORE THE NEW YEAR’S EVE



That this country gone with a wind (better to use fraise from the movie than to use words in brown and black color), we all know so bloody well. But I still have a small need to describe it. Most of the people are moody, nervous, running to nowhere, yelling to the strangers, yelling to each other, paying with non-existing money, buying bunch of stupid things.
Usually, here is not very dangerous. But, sometimes is risky in night buses, when aggressive young people are using the situation when there is a bunch of them. They are not paying ticket, they talk and look ugly.
I am ignoring the whole country situation, I don’t have time for bullshit.
My world is made from – mind adventures, I really enjoy now in writing and writing, consuming books instead of TV, enjoying in meeting different nations, loving, taking photos, posing for the photos, busting my ass off in efforts for phd, ielts, learning, reading, searching for external phd funding, searching for alternative opportunities, keeping mail communication with all relevant people, saving money for the upcoming change, being busy and hardworking…
Besides that, now is the time for seduction and play.
We are the best only ones.
After that, we are just becoming better and better.
We exist now, in reality, beyond the dreams.   


BELGRADO AFTER THE NEW YEAR’S EVE

Great party, music without a concept, I learnt making new cocktails and that Mensans are not as scary as they used to seem  when I was younger, now they are just very cool.  Lot of handsome interesting people (one much more than the others).
After 31.December the pressure vanishes. And that’s the good thing. Now I have lot of IELTS test to do, to translate ‘Oblici pripovedanja u pripovetkama D. Mihajlovica’, to prepare following promotions in Shumadia, to… And to have long walks and warm talks, and after that tea or boiled red wine in some cozy café and after that...

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BELGRADO 6

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BELGRADO 6

I just watched classic episode of Dynasty: Blake and Steven are arguing about Steven being a gay and Blake is complaining to Medical comity’s decision that homosexuality is not a disease. And before the wedding, Crystal is sad because Blake is very rich, and she was grown up in small poor village, and she doesn't know how to deal with it.   :)    Precious. We had our “Dynasty names” in primary school. I think I was Claudia, crazy chick.
Great personal discovery: it’s possible to buy a jar of only white eurocream! My childhood dream.
Stickers about my book are now on corners of Amsterdam, and one copy of the book is being read in Paris at the moment. That makes me happy and chilled out ;)
About that other thing – I am trying to put it in some hidden corner of my mind. I wrote a dozen letters, but I won’t send neither.  
After a lot a lot a lot of sangria last night, I was sleeping till 5 pm.  And it’s dark again. I think I was drinking from sadness. Or the sangria was very good ;)
Belgrado under the snow. Amsterdam under the snow. Sadness under the snow. People under the snow.
I have sudden desire to live in Kisangani.

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BELGRADO 5, WINTER

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BELGRADO 5, WINTER


After night full of cocktails, my mind is not very clear, but I am still fulfilling obligations, do official communication and blah blah blah.
I am living as a nomad. And that is a little bit odd situation. Everything is empty and free. You don’t have any kind of stability, nothing is certain. But you are like an energetic machine, you don’t lose time on irrelevant, you are focused, seductive and successful.
Few months ago, I met some great nomadic people. Willy was hitchhiking with his girlfriend with only tent and sleeping bags and few basic stuffs. When I asked – ‘Winter is coming soon, what will you do, how to hitchhike when it’s snowing?’, he told me – ‘We will go to Canary Islands and do some season jobs.’ And they are there now. But of course! That’s so simple.
People from Serbia should choose alternative ways of living; because the usual ones are not working here anymore.
The same should do people from rich capitalistic countries, when capitalism makes them spoiled and depressed.
Willy is my inspiration. Also Marina Abramovic.
I am exploring my own way. It’s not easy, but it’s fun. Promotions, TV shows, interviews, reviews… I am enjoying in various roles. Guesting on TV relaxes me. That’s strange, people usually feel the opposite. Applying for scientific job was very difficult and demanding; lot of researching work, spending time in libraries and on the internet.  But I did it. Now only calmness and patience are needed. Money for the plane ticket I saved ;)
I am without love in me, because someone succeeded to cross my line. I was fighting for love with lot of positive energy, understanding, calmness and passion. But, things just happened in some dark cold way without my influence. I am now stuck and broken. But people are not like vases. Even broken, they are continuing to shine.
Cold and sparkling day in Belgrado. 

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BELGRADO 2

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BELGRADO 2


 Autumn postcard from Belgrade: situation here is not really in plus. I feel depressed and tired. So, I am not in plus.
People. People are exhausting me. All of them are depressed, more or less. They are exhausting me with their gothic-trash-look, with their lovers’ fights on public places, with their numerous prejudices. Some things here are making me wanna puke. Constant nagging to this and that and that; big laziness; hard job for small money…
Nothing looks good in Belgrade. Their behavior is perfectly normal reaction.
(I feel some indefinite fear… Fear from being alive.)
So, I am hanging out mostly with guests in our country, cs friends and sister plus baby. They are my energizers.
Also – riding a bike to and from job, attending cs light parties, planning book promotions, photo walks with good friend and photographer who knows how to inspire a model in me… I am enjoying in lot of writing (very passionate poems and stories which are not suitable for publishing right now) and reading (Marquez, Pisarev, Pavic…)
After morning depression, days are spent in entrepreneurial behavior. That’s also an energizer – my active self. After digging up my index in some hidden corner, I am like a new student now – freshmen. Discussing with professors about my topic, considering A’dam chances and also few other nice cities as alternatives. Everybody is supporting the topic, to my surprise. It would be really a pleasure to write it, pleasure and a serious job. These days I am consulting professors, writers and critics, because I want to make the best selection of books.
In cs meeting everything is possible. Making strong conversation about conflicts in Man’s novels and controversies in Niche’s philosophy; siting at  long table like on peasant’s wedding; listening toothless chick talking about me in very rude way. But that’s just like that (zo). I am used to communication with prejudices in A’dam; as I said – I like when two cities are look alike.
I am continuing to learn Dutch whenever I have time and I really enjoy in that soft sexy sounds.
These days I like and search for: children’s beauty and energy; Belgrade’s autumn, river and cost; supportive people; guys behaving friendly; intelligent provocative guys; my arse in colorful leggings; speed walking and speed cycling on my light bicycle; watching sometimes Rudolf for improving cooking skills and improving Dutch (words for the ingredients are important); good weed on my terrace with fast-workaholic-friend, while staring at shiny ball.
I am looking forward to the birthday presents; fair in Smederevska Palanka; intellectual adventures; life changes; something brand brand new.

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BELGRADO

Author: Lidija / Labels: , ,


Ok, let’s do Belgrade, in a small dose. He’s the same; maybe I am a little bit different.
It’s very hot here, still. Sun makes me sleepy.
Playing with a baby, seeing lot of friends, having funny communication, thinking about A’dam (keeping the habits in a tram and on the crossroads), walking, cycling (hm, feeling like a kaskader while cycling in a Belgrade center)…
Attended great party in Brod and saw many old friends, mhmmm, love couchsurfing, also love gay people (in A’dam are gentle, here a little bit extreme). Watched fascinating silent Japanese movie Naked Island… Kinoteka is special place.
There are always lot of nice stuff to do in Belgrade and great new people to meet.
I think that I am living a little bit in my head right now… I am not really participating. Pain is vivid. And memories. Feeling strange, like in a Doors’ song.
But… Mhmmm. Expecting a book. Soon, very very soon. Thinking about promotions in clubs…
Miss so much Amsterdam friends and building a path to see them again soon.
I am happy when Belgrade and Amsterdam are look alike. In A’dam on the street I got one “I love you” from the stranger and here “Svidjas mu se – he likes you” from construction worker;)
Weather is perfect and fulfilling, for cycling, for writing, for hanging out and having weird conversations.
I met some interesting people; among them one controversial Albanian guy from Prishtina and some gentle Germans. I was really happy meeting an Albanian, because that didn’t happen for a long long time. I think generally for the German guys that they are little bit reserved and shy. I consider it refreshing.  
When you live abroad (me not yet, but anyway), your own town looks different/better to you...


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